Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Philicia, 110894Philicia Ang Create Your Badge I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard
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Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Well, i thought that was just admiration, and you have already disappeared from my mind. Ha, but little did i know, you are still on my mind. LOL. You are like perfect. You are humorous. Aiya, you are the kind that i like. There are times whereby i really feel like sending you a text. Hi or to inform you that i have changed my number or something. But i don't know how to start. You might find me weird or even crazy. Haha. My life has not really been what i want it to be. If i could turn back the clock, i will not lose contact with you. Alright, it has been days since i last talked to my father. Don't feel like talking to them. When i talked to my mother this morning, i sill got sort of a scolding from her. I really need to let my hair down. I need to let everything out of my mind. Maybe i need to cry. .___. I don't even remember when i last cried. But i doubt i will be able to cry. Haha. AND, MR FRANCIS TEO IS A CHEATER ! HE WANT ME TO GO FOR REMEDIAL BEFORE GIVING ME MY CHOCOLATE ! T.T Sunday, February 20, 2011
Okay, life have been pretty much the same. Nothing much happened. Sometimes, people describe the way i talk guailan, like ah lian. I dont know why. But I talk like a normal person. Haha. Ya, I kinda hate my life. Nothing goes right in my life. Getting scolded for nothing. Yeah, it happens all the time. I used to get all the attention from my parents. But after I had my youngest brother, everything changed. He stole all the attention from my parents. I don't really care anymore. I prefer talking to my friends, telling all my troubles and problems to them,than telling them to my parents. To me, home is like a place for me to sleep, bathe and watch tv. I realize that I don't really eat at home. I rather eat outside. My uncle keeps threatening me. Wanted to give my dog and rabbit away. I really hate it when they threatens to give my pets away. They are such idiotic people. I spend my money the way I want. Stop saying that I anyhow spend or whatever. You said that I keep asking money from you, and I should give you my pay. Have you ever wondered if I gave you my pay and I have no money to spend, I still will take money from you right? I admit, I anyhow spend money. But sometimes, when something happens, you like to talk about the past. You blame me for buying things. But lemme tell you, I bought that in December. Now you are still harping on it ! Fml. You don't understand me. I think you don't even know what I like. What I like to eat, who are my best friends etc. You only look at the bad side of me. You don't even look at what I am good at. This whole week is no different from other weeks. Except mr Francis teo owes my my chocolate !! I will get it from him tomorrow ! This week have been kinda free. Teachers on mc. Maths, any teacher but vinay, please. And physics, I hope mr Harold goh will teach us. Chinese, worse. Teachers caring only for the 4es. No one really care about sec 5s. Saturday, February 12, 2011
Today is kinda fun . Went out with ym. Went to 313 and orchard. We went to cairnhill Sakura for dinner. First time eating Sakura, first time eating buffet. Eat a bit full already. Omg. I eat until vomit. Too full. Hehe. The food was not bad. We walled around 313 before dinner. Haha. Guess what? I saw.. Hehehehe. The people are cute. But not a lot uh . But still, I feel happy. Lol. Oh ya, when we going back, I saw this group. We thought they are going back too, but.. They didnt go to the mrt station ! ): Cute, stylish. Hehehehe. Saturday, February 5, 2011
What do guys look for in girls ? Pretty? Cute? Attractive? Skinny? Just the way they are? Or simply fuckable? -.- Chinese new year have been pretty much boring. Been doing nothing. Went to grandma house and papa's house. Eat, eat, eat. Ohmytian. Today, people are coming. Not sure how to describe them. But relative uh. Other than these, i have been stating at home watching tv. -.- Watching plain jane. It's so incredible. I wished that i was like her. Fallen for her one of her best friends. 6 years of friendship. She transformed into a bombshell. Well, her best friend, which was her crush, actually had a crush on her during high school. No one confesses. Until she transformed into a bombshell and told him. They are happily together. If only the guy i like, like me too. But i don't know who i like. Guys who i think are perfect, are guys who are impossible to get. Really impossible. They are just too perfect. Tall, handsome, cool, cute, stylish, best is know how to cook. HAHA. Perfect guys are either attached, bi or homo. So ya, hard to find the perfect guy huh. Especially when i myself is imperfect. Everyone have their flaws right ? I have mine too. But i have more than i can mention. Imperfect me needs someone to make me perfect. :D PS. I'm a SHY girl. Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Few more hours to reunion dinner. It has been a long time since my family and i had dinner together. As a family. Although i don't really like eating together, but this just happens once every year right ? At least for my family it's once every year. Parents are all busy working and hardly spend time with us. Pack pack pack ~ I hate packing up. Until now, i think only my room is still left unpacked. I am lazy to pack my room. I'm like sitting around watching tv, and not using my spare time to pack the house and my room. Chinese new year, i think you are kinda boring. :/ I don't really have the new year feeling this year. Maybe my feelings machine had broken down. Hah ! Tomorrow going to grandmother's house. Hehe. Can't wait. Missed my cousins and grandmother. Having steamboat at her house too. :D This better be a good year to start my studying. Hope i get the mood to pack my room. Haha. |
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